Lua Cheia

It's Portuguese for the one thing that makes me happy at any time of life be it good or bad( I mean whether the time be good or bad.).You are gonna have to read to the end of this blog to figure out what it is.

I have met a person that..It's hard to explain I guess, mainly because I don't even know. But since I have met this person things have gotten better, or at least creatively better. I guess you could say that they are my muse. Maybe, it could just be coincidence. But I am finishing projects that would normally take me a year, and My mind is less cluttered.( I am still not doing homework though, personal choice.) It may not be solely because of this person, but it is partially. I haven't met anybody like this in while. Especially one who is like a mix of my friends and myself. Never. I have only encountered people of this kind (I am trying not to be gender specific) that are my polar opposites and don't understand most of what I am saying. They remind me of myself, but more so the person I strive to be. Their vibe is really good and when I talk to them they listen (I think I could stand to listen more) But they are very open minded. and sure my friends are open minded, but not in this way. (or at least not that I know of) It's hard to say. I am at a loss of words. I doubt I have this effect on them but they have it on me. Even though we are similar people we still have our differences and some of those differences intimidate me a little, but I think it will be okay.Most of the intimidation comes from me being afraid of something different, so once I get over my paranoia things will look up. Not that they aren't. This person has the potential to be a good something (I don't know what they are yet) But whatever it is I think it will be good for me. I hope.

So now the answer. Cheia Lua or Lua Cheia(I don't know which way it goes) means full moon. Since I was little I guess I have had an urge to go outside. I would walk barefoot outside and I would play al ot. It was a happy time. And as I got older I stop walking barefoot and going outside. But during the past weeks (and over the summer) I have played in the cold, carefree. I have played in the rain. I have loved life. But there was one thing that I recently starting doing that I hadn't done until I had to for a project in 5th grade. I looked up. At night. in fifth grade I had to look at the moon phases, and I did that for about a semester, and ever since then I have looked up. And every time I see a full moon I feel something. I don't know what it is but just the color of the moon and the weather( I like looking at the moon during winter), makes me feel better than I did before. So yeah, that's the only thing that can make me happy no matter what. If you count out music. so yay

Lyrics I love: "lost and loaded
still the same 'ol decent lazy eye
straight through your gaze
that's why i said i relate
i said we relate
it's so fun to relate
it's the room the sun and the sky
it's the room the sun and the sky
i've been waiting
i've been waiting for this moment...

Remember: It is always worth the wait.