Fire in the second row, the whole place is a powder keg!!!

It's one of those nights were thoughts like to invade the personal space of my dreamland, and I think it's quite rude of them. Geez, can a girl not get any rest?

I just realized I am one of those. You see them in movies and one may even be on your couch. I am "the artist",the "tortured soul" ,the "college student" if you will. I sleep all day and then attribute it to my creativity, my productivity."It's a part of the process." But I mean I do get ideas in my sleep, but it's not like I remember them all the way once I'm up, and then in daydreams brilliant thoughts appear, but I am too busy being in a sleepy stupor to act upon them. I think that I am just the victim of the young adult rock and a semi-hard place. I am too young to get a job, which means I can't afford any gas money for when I do get the car.... Yep that whole list of excuses. Hopefully I can get by with the help of my chauffeurs (mom and grandpa) But truth be told they aren't that dependable. But hey who says I can do better, It's not like I've been eighty years of age, or a single, working mother. That's a lot of things to deal with I suppose. Gosh, having ambition but having a shortage of drive is draining, but I think since I've been doing things that make things seem more possible my gas meter is going up, so there's hope in the fight against the pessimistic inside of my brain. I didn't really write this for anybody I was trying to clear my head before I put my head to the pillow.You can understand that right?

Also something to get angry about. JPS school systems are in serious need of repair. I am thankful for the opportunities that I have had, from the great teachers to the pupils around me. But I have to say it saddens me to know that teachers who are terribly unqualified are being hired in order to fill a void created by teachers who are tired of not getting results from students who want to learn, who understand and may even be facing the fact that the odds are against them but don't or at least feel as if they don't have people behind them to help them keep going when it gets rough. And that sucks because I can't do anything about it. I may have my selfish teenage moments but I just wish that more people would try to be self less and help. They say they try, but I haven't seen the results from their "Hard work."

Me Angry and you won't like me when I'm angry, but the bed beckons and I have to push the "Hulk down" button.Night.