Hope is gone....She is trying to find herself.

Okay not really, but I guess I really am trying to answer all of the "why/how/when" questions in life(well of my life) right now. I know that it's a little early for that, but I guess honestly every experience is a little early. Then I guess it wouldn't be called an experience (I hope that made sense in some way) Not really the why am I here? stuff but more like the how did I get here, not so much in a "how the universe came to be" way but my journey from generation to generation. What did my ancestors like? What did they do? I guess the questions is really more like "why am I the way I am?"

I feel a weird connection to a lot of races, and I just can't explain it. It's like I've been apart of these (the other culture's)ritual for years. And it's odd. I love Asian culture (not just the food aspect) but the whole thing, the clothing, the music, the technology. And I love the language and music of Latin American culture. I love African culture, the language, the togetherness (of most people). I love the connection that the Native Americans have with planet. I love it all. I know that they are all connected and that they influenced each other. But I just feel apart of it all. I want to submerse myself in it. Go everywhere I can and breathe the air of people of different cultures and backgrounds. Sure I can do that here in America but I want to experience it on a global level. I feel disconnected from a lot of things. So when I do something as simple as learning Spanish or save a bug, I some how feel closer to where I want to be. I know this is rambling, but if you haven't noticed already my alias is Rambler of the Mind. It happens. You get a whim to write and you let whatever you are feeling at the time or whatever pops into your head come out. Aw well, I think I am off to see if I can't figure out a way of meditating that I like and that is convenient. We'll see how that goes until then, love like you were dying.

on another tip, Jeff Buckley's Mojo Pin is the shiz, oh yeah Mew is hella awesome (I don't usually say hella but it was floating in my head)