I'm leaving but I don't know where to

I am supposed to be writing a paper (yes again) and I have side tracked myself immensely(yes again) but this time I think it was for the greater good. I have been obsessed with Juno, and everything about it, and the soundtrack is great. So I am looking up all the artists from it (most of them are Kimya Dawson) and I become somewhat immersed in her. She is one of the weirdest, most beautiful, loving people I have known. And I say known, because that's what it feels like. She is so open but not in the I am trying too hard kinda of way, she just is. And she exhibits the "mother of the world" quality which doesn't exists in many.Amazing is she.



I feel like such and ass. I found out that people were reading this thing and I became one of the most comment obsessed people I know. And I always get like that, I post something a place and I automatically become obsessed with the success of it or how well it was received and it's really annoying,and I don't like the fact that I do that and yet I keep doing it. And the only way I don't do it is to keep busy, but I can't keep busy forever.



I really need to get a better work ethic. I used to be a hard worker but now I am just tired all the time and lazy, and I don't get it. I have all these dreams and ideas and I'm letting them go to waste because I am too damn lazy to move. I mean okay I make clothes... That's peachy but the Amish do better.And there's this freaking rock band called Tiny Masters of Today and their collective age is 24 (two kids aged 11 and 13) They are doing more things than I am and I am like four years older than one of them. What the hell am I doing with myself? I need to get my damn permit, get me a beatle, a job, (or better yet a drive) and get off my ass. I want to do so much and I am not making an effort. and that pisses me off at myself. This ends today. Because if it doesn't I have no point in being here because I am not being the person I want to be.

End.