Those songs are really pretty and very insightful. Radiohead, check it out.
Anyways have you ever had a feeling that everything would be okay not matter how shitty things got? I know it's kind of weird to be in your teens and talking about stuff like that, but if you've been through enough stuff and you recognize that you are growing person I guess not. This time last year I was about to get the worst news of my life that would mark the beginning of a slightly downward spiral that didn't even get better when the year ended.And Ironically it took me going back to the place(the actual place, not being metaphorical here) where the the life changing news had happened, seeing that even in the most dire conditions that change can happen, to learn that things are not always as bad as they seem. I know it's all been said before but you don't actually believe it until you experience it. It 's like things are bad but I could be dead or dying, but I am not. I am here. I am living. I am breathing. And nothing can keep me from that truth. Only I can.(whoa, big "Anthem" (the book)moment) I know that in some circumstances it's necessary to die, physically. But I will never let my spirit die. Believe me I have come close to it but I have made up my mind and I am will not allow that to happen.But back to the epiphany. It was weird. I was reading an email from a friend of mine and he was talking about how he couldn't believe people he knew were going off to college. Which is something I had been thinking about all week. And then (not necessarily in this order) I had reached the conclusion that everything was going to be just fine. I was on facebook and then I read this quote
"What's comin' will come, an' we'll meet it when it does."
And it was oddly enlightening. It just made me feel better about everything. I know it's weird to be reassured by a quote but it makes sense right?So yeah, I mean I was already into the whole Taoism philosophy of life as noted in previous blogs, but I mean looking back on the past year and realizing how far as a person I have come and how far I have to go. It just all makes sense and it makes me want to get finished with school, love my friends more and life live fuller. I haven't done that in a while(mostly since I was five) And I think it's time that I did something about that.
Oh and yes I do know that this blog is repetitive, but so are most things. (cycles, inside jokes, Some emphasized points, college books and some professors, etc.)And expect grammatical errors.
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