And I still don't know exactly who I am. I never will Amen

Well I haven't written in a while not that I haven't felt an urge to it;s just that I didn't find it necessary. As you can probably figure out by now most of the topics that I talk about involve finding yourself and being human, which I guess is what's life is about but I must admit sometimes that gets annoying to talk about so, in the beginning of the blog entry I will get everything I have to say about life out of the way and then I will talk about other random things. Okay well over the past few months I have noticed that I have needed to become a better person and I have been on the road to become one ever since. And I have noticed that as I change other people do too, and it's weird to listen to a music artist that I listened to at the worst times of my life and related to then, and listen to their new album, which is about the same things from a new view and realize how much people can change. At first this said artist seemed hostile and nervous apprehensive about a lot of things, but in this album they seemed to have realized that they are ready to change, and how no matter how much they want to go back to that relationship or how much they want to cower under past behavior they can't. It's not good for them or the people they love. And now it's time for them to take their flaws(which is originally what held them back in the first place) that may never change and try and make themselves a new person and start something else, a new chapter. And even though I haven't experienced what they have I can really relate with that theme. I think being able to understand most of these feeling can possibly prepare me for the harder times of life. Hopefully I won't let anything break me. But I think that I can say that at this time in my life I am not afraid of what there is to come. I can't wait for my first heartbreak, my first child, I just can't wait for it all. I wish I could press the fast forward button and see how it plays out or at least get a taste, but where's the fun in that? I guess I just have to wait to see how this story ends. But hopefully that will be a long time from now

Okay now to change the subject. (not really)Motion City Soundtrack's(they are the band I was talking about)new album is nice. I would go as far as to say beautiful, but only in a simple way. Compared to their second album, it's kind of stripped down and slightly cliched, but I think that's mostly the point of it. The songs are really simple and melodious and very introspective in the classic MCS style. I wouldn't say it's the best album I ever heard, but it's a refreshing reminder of how music can depict feelings perfectly.

Okay here we got the unrelated topic. I recently got assigned a locker at school, (which I will never use) and when I opened I found one of the copies of the Leonardo da vinci notebook. And all I have to say is wow, the artwork is gorgeous, and it's obvious the man knew what he was doing. The detail of the human anatomy he pointed out, is something humans don't stand still long enough to notice. I love it.

Also another thing, the new Fall Out Boy video is wonderful, and it really gives the young people of today who have occupied their time with Ipods and how bad Britney Spears has gotten something else to think about, other than themselves of course. And that's all I have to say about that (Forrest Gump Reference anyone?) Anyways take care of each other and then we won't have to worry about much. Love.