Yeah I wasn't really trying hard with the lifting of the lyrics of yet another Jeff Buckley Title.(Grace) But I've recently gotten into a tiff with my dear ole mummy and I felt the need to shout it from the wires of the Internet from one synapse to another. But my mommy is very reserved and sometimes closed minded about many things and somehow she managed to birth a kid who believes in reincarnation, and many eastern religious. Seriously What the fuck is up. I mean I could chuck it up to the whole parents just don't understand syndrome of adolescence but if only it was so simple. My mom really doesn't get what I think. She constantly talks about how she's worried that I'll get drugged or raped , and all the things she sees on TV and yet she claims to have a faith that is unbreakable. I don't claim any faith, and I believe that things, good and bad will happen to whether you want them to or not, and also that karma is a bitch.Really. Sure I drink behind people fully aware of the fact that people like to spike drinks. O-fucking-kay. And I know that you've heard horror stories. Okay that's freaking awesome, but can you at least give me room to trip? I mean I know you think that just because you let me do things that you didn't let My bro do, or that you weren't allowed to do that you are giving me more freedom than ever. But have you not noticed the kind of person I am. I thrive off of this stuff. I get that you are scared, hell yeah I 'm scared too, but jeez your "love" is cutting of my oxygen supply. I hate being the kid that always can't go. Seriously is gets annoying. And yeah sure I agree sometimes the things I ask are overzealous. And in hind sight I am glad that you say no. But I am trying to learn how to be a fully functioning adult. Okay. It may seem that I am trying to grow up too fast, but I just feel like I am running out of time for everything. And once you've seen the people that you thought were going to live forever die, you kinda wanna do everything you can so that you can feel like you done all that you've wanted with no regrets, whether it be smoke a joint or read the 5,000 page analysis of Quasar theories. I just wanted to do it all, and see everything before my time is up. I know that some people think that kids do reckless stuff because they think that they are invincible, but I don't think it's true, I think kids get so fucked up because they are worried that it's going to be over fast. And with the way the world is burning in it's own fiery pits, it looks like a greater possibility.
And now onto more crackpot rambles...
I mean I just think that I've been here before and that I choose to do things for a reason. That I am very free spirit whose trying to get it right this time around, or maybe recapture the things that I may have lost in my many journeys. I'm not saying you've got to believe this shit I'm pouring out, It's just that maybe there more to it than just trying to survive the world, or trying to get the money, the wife, the kids. Maybe it's about being a part of the world. Doing everything even if it contradicts with what you believe, because thought isn't set in stone and what you think isn't the ultimate truth is there is one. So what's wrong with believing in a little bit of all of it?I hope there was some kinda meaning in that, but I just felt the need to explode in word from. I hope my brain vomit was nutritious. Have a great day out there peoples.
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