Well, Jesus Christ I’m not scared to die,But I’m a little bit scared of what comes after.

before you put my body in the cold ground,

take some time and warm it with your hands,

before its coming to an end.

It seems as though I am the only one up right now. And usually that's the time I have the best ideas. They don't usually get written down though because most of the time I am on the verge of sleep. I am kinda tired but not really.Tomorrow is the last day of en colegio, and I am glad about it. I need this break to help me retain my sanity(or what's left of it)
I don't really think this blog will be that insightful, or wise. I think I will settle on human tonight. It's weird because I am listening to The Devil and God are raging inside of me(Brand New) and all of a sudden I hear rain. Cool huh? Sometimes it happens like that.It was brief.
I find that most of the time I am only really able to speak or write in simple sentences and the more complicated or better yet, educated I try to make things seem the more confused I end up being in the end. I am not a good explainer, this I understand, but I think I possess an ability to translate things by my actions and my facial expressions. Now hold on because this one might take a minute. Some people are able to convey what they want through words, which is great but people lie, and they tend to over complicate things that are so easy with their brain(I know this because I have done it before) But I've noticed that people's responses go beyond that. I mean of course it's obvious when you ask someone are they okay and they say they are fine but you can tell they aren't but It's how some people lose the sparkle in their eyes when they talk about certain things and how they light up when they talk about others, or how they have a friend that they really wish they were able to get rid of, but they don't because they feel sorry for them. And many other things. People are shady, and they hide things in order to prevent hurt, whether it be towards themselves or someone else. which may seem like a good intention, but it almost always does more harm than good. I understand that some people aren't able to tell the truth boldly or they shouldn't because their personality lacks the compassion,bravery,and love it takes to tell the truth. But those whose personalities do contain the amount of humanity it takes shouldn't hide how they feel, because most of the time it could better someones perspective.And maybe even the world. (Okay I got off subject) But I communicate through my facial expressions, my body language and my energy, and only the people who I am really close with, or connect to understand it. I could be having a really hard time, and I try my best to talk my way out of it, but it doesn't work. I have a really bad poker face, and I am a really bad liar.(unless, I come up with a real good story)
One of these days I will be able to stop talking about how bad of a verbal communicator I am, but for some reason, I guess I think that is something that people have to understand. When I stutter it's not out of lack of things to say, it's the lack of HOW to say it. I have so many words to choose from and it becomes hard to pick, so I just end of with the simplest forms there are. Just because I put the commas in the wrong places and spell things wrong does not mean I am uneducated, it just means that I had too much on my mind at that moment, too much to get out, And the feelings I feel aren't concerned about grammatical errors, it just wants to get out. That's all I can think now. My mind is empty (except for chemistry and Spanish) Maybe there will me more later, I don't know. It all depends on how fucked up the world turns out to be at the end of this revolution.(which is a day for all you science-ly challenged)

I could never miss it