We Are Nowhere and It's Now

I've been sleeping so strange at night, side effects they don't advertise.

I am getting scared. I have noticed that alot of creative people at my school, like me, an artist, and a musician I know, have fallen into a academic funk. I keep dreaming that one day it'll be like one of those weird "Heroes" moments where we will all be commissioned to do something that's going to change the world. I don't know what it is, but I know it's going to be big. And I am afraid. Having a feeling and not knowing if what you are feeling will happen, or if it's justified or not gives you that same kind of anticipation that lives in your stomach right before you jump off that ledge, or just before the roller coaster begins, or just before you have sex with the one you love.You don't know what's going to happen next, but you are certain of three things:
1: You are so scared right now
2:You hands are shaking so much right now
3: This might just be the most fun you will ever have in your life.
Well this is how I feel. I feel it in my gut. I look at these people, my friends, the ones who think different than everybody else, and may just contain the most original thought I have ever known, flunking out of English, or at least pulling a low D. I know that we all can pull our grades up,( I mean it's only midterm) but it's just the fact that we aren't doing our work and wasting time daydreaming, that excites me and frightens me. I can't wait to see what comes of it...

So I'm up at dawn puttting on my shoes. I just want to make a clean escape.I know I'm leaving but I don't know where to...