I am coming up for Air (finally)

Okay the title is kinda sucky but who cares. I haven't blogged in like forever. Many things have happened and whether I choose to share or not shall be determined sometime by the end of this blog. So I just came back from another planet which involved: Failing classes, getting the Stomach flu, and finding out some REALLY bad news, failing to finish make-up work, entering and then trying to resign from a pageant, making own clothes for said pageant and getting thousands of complements (which I shall go into detail later), Having a brief moment of suicidal wonders, and trying not to fail. And wailing arms in a desperate attempt to ask for help (that one only happened in my head) Oh yeah and thinking about a boy that I shouldn't think about. I think that's about it. The last three week all sum-ED up. I hope it tasted good. Cause It didn't for me.

I have been reading other peoples blogs (ooh bad me) and I have come to realize that a lot of people I know write about the same thing as I do they just word it in a different way, and they often feel that nobody understands what they are saying or that nobody else out there feels the same way they do. Which is a mistake to think because with over 3 billion people in this sometimes sad excuse for a world there has to at least three people out there who understand you and at sometimes may seem like an exact copy of you. It's weird how the world works sometime. Too bad they will never notice that I or anybody much like them exist, because they are spending too much time dwelling on the simple things. I used to/still do dwell about stupid things.
Like:
This town sucks
I will never date the boy I like until I get out of College
People just won't stop dying
Life is immensely sucking right now
I am sleepy
I am a slacker
And other things like that. Ya know the teenage junk. it happens.


My blogs tend to circumnavigate about many things. Such as how they circumnavigate, Why they circumnavigate, how obsessed I am with a petty little topic, and how come do I not have anyone to date, and or talk to intimately of the opposite sex.(that one is a favorite)I was watching a video about how to have a good Internet blog and one of the main topics was to not spend forever talking about your personal life because nobody cares. Well frankly my dear I don't give a damn. If no one wants to listen to my problems they might as well read them. It is so much easier then, because all you'd have to do is back away from my page. In real life I can follow you. And Has it ever occurred to you that if you spent time listening to me in real life I might not need to post on the Internet about how sucky life is for me right now? Just a thought

So I watched requiem for a dream last week ( kinda Ironic because I know somebody/people who are having to put their lives on hold so that their own requiem is playing, or so that they can get a glimpse of how their requiem would sound if they ever choose to give up on themselves) So anyways I am watching and at first I was kinda skeptical, mainly because it has freaking Jared Leto in it. And Knowing that he had played in many roles but only having truly become associated with him through his music, I was finding it hard to take him seriously as an actor. But He did an okay job. Considering I don't how good I would have been in that same role. but the lady who played his mother did an awesome job and the direction of it and the music (especially Lux Aeterna) was pretty damn good. Speaking of Direction and Jared Leto. I also watched Fight Club. Prior to this I had read the book and I loved it. I was kinda expecting to see the book personified, but it was a nice surprise. And it seemed to me that the director and the writers of the screenplay had read the book and they had really gotten into the mind frame of the narrator/Tyler Durden. and I as a viewer really respected that. Good job and kudos to them.

Beauty and Beau
Okay in order to absolve any suspense, I didn't win. Oh don't worry I knew I wasn't and I didn't enter it to win.
But I made all of my outfits for it (except of the first one, but I did improvise that one and it was quite nice)
And oddly enough I got a quite warm response about my outfits. It made me feel good. But I didn't really like it when people were like : Make me one! That kinda stuff really bothers me.

It's not because you want me to make you one. I would gladly do it. Any chance to get out my work is a good chance worth taking. It's just the fact that you don't give me anything to go on. Maybe it's my fault. for not making myself clear. I specialize in originality and me making you a copy of something I have is defeating the purpose. I wish people would understand that. Well that is all for now. I am kinda sleepy and I have work to do so off I go. I love you guys!(blame all spelling errors on my fingers)


Also Congrats to Glen Hansard, Marketa Irglova, Diablo Cody, Marion Cotillard, and Javier Bardem. I am proud of all you guys and especially because you guys genuinely appreciated it, and deserved it. Yay you!

Hope is the thing that connects us and holds us all together.